Is it normal to be completely and utterly scared at one week post op??!
I'm freaking out about all the bad stuff. It's awful, I'm so afraid of failing myself and this tool. :(
I'm so scared and feel alone, but I know I'm not. I don't want to feel like this, I was so confident before. Why now?!
I decided to go to bed early tonight, because I'm going back to work tmrw. I guess I'm nervous about that, making sure I can get my protein and water in there.
I developed this freakin' painful red lump under my arm, like, on my side boob and of course have bad thougts about that now too. Ugh! I honestly think it's the new sports bra my mom got me to wear while I'm healing, it rubs right there.
I think I'm conditioned to be negative, but I was making great progress on that, so I will fix that.
On another note, got in 67 grams of protein today, and about 4-5 cups of water (32-40 oz). Not the best, but good nonetheless. I'm also finding that all I'm eating during full liquids is my protein shakes (milk or water), and puddings (sugar free of course). Not a big soup person or jello. Guess that's okay, only one more week to go until soft foods!! Yay!
Okay, that's enough for now, ciao!