Thursday, December 29, 2011


I got cleared to do zumba!!! That makes me sooooo happy. But now I'm sick and feeling doen, so I might have to wait a few days, but yay for good news!!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011


Really bad food choices this week. ;( Too many sweets = too many unwanted calories. And it was way to windy for my walk today. I would have went despite feeling like crap.

Question, after surgery, when did you start really exercising again? I want to back to zumba so bad.

Monday, December 19, 2011

Meet Me On Monday - Christmas Edition.

Blogging  is a funny thing...we tell our most intimate thoughts for all to read  and yet most of the time I find myself sitting and wondering, "who is  this person!?"  I know them...but yet I don't know them!  I want  to know who the person is behind all those words so I thought of a great  way for all of us to "meet" each other!

Every Sunday Never Growing Old will post five get to know you  questions that you can copy and paste into your own Monday post and we  can all learn a little more about each and every one of us!!
1.Wrapping paper or gift bags?
2.Real or artificial tree?
3.When do you put your tree up?
4.When do you take your tree down?
5.Do you like eggnog?
6.Do you have a nativity scene?
7.Favorite Christmas Movie?
8.Favorite Christmas cookie?
9.Where will you eat Christmas dinner?
10.Angel, bow or star on top of your tree?
11.Most annoying thing about this time of the year?
12.Do you like Fruitcake?
13.What are you most excited about the holidays?
14.Do you open presents Christmas Eve or Christmas Morning?
15.Will you still be wrapping presents on Christmas Eve?
My Answers:
1.Wrapping paper or gift bags?
We do both.

2.Real or artificial tree? We always went out and cut down a real tree at my parents, but since being in our apartment, we now do artificial.
3.When do you put your tree up? Usually after Thanksgiving.

4.When do you take your tree down? First or 2nd week of Jan.

5.Do you like eggnog? No

6.Do you have a nativity scene? No

7.Favorite Christmas Movie? A Christmas Story, National Lampoon's, and all the cute little cartoon ones.

8.Favorite Christmas cookie? Peanut butter blossoms!

9.Where will you eat Christmas dinner? At my moms house.

10.Angel, bow or star on top of your tree? We have an ornament that looks like a 3D star from Target. It's gold and glittery. :)

11.Most annoying thing about this time of the year?  All the money that is spent (agreed Robyn)

12.Do you like Fruitcake? No thanks

13.What are you most excited about the holidays? My new BFF (my band), and just being with loved ones

14.Do you open presents Christmas Eve or Christmas Morning? Brian and I do ours to each other on Christmas Eve, then we go to my moms on Christmas morning around 9 and do those, then we go to his moms around 4ish and do more. :)

15.Will you still be wrapping presents on Christmas Eve?  Prolly not.


It's been awhile. I've been good, just working, shopping, sleeping, walking, ect.

Cannot believe that Christmas is in 6 days! Craziness! I still have to get my dad something and wrap a few more things. Not too bad.

My 27th birthday was yesterday, Brian got me a Nook tablet (yay!) reading a book about Michael Jackson, written by his longtime friend Frank Cascio. It's really good so far. He also got me a Philosophy thing called "Birthday Girl", yummy! It has a body wash/shampoo/bubble bath called Grace, a face moisturizer called Purity, a lip balm/gloss in Vanilla Cake, a foot lotion called "Soul" and a hand/cuticle lotion. Love it! His mom also got me a Sephora gift card which came with a cute Sephora pocket mirror. :) And tomorrow I'm going to get a tattoo (thanks to my mom!) for my birthday. Going to an awesome guy named Ron at Established Tattoos off of Paxton St. Appointment is at 5:30, can't wait! I'm getting the words "Break Down the Walls, Break Down the Shame", it's a line from a poem I wrote. I'm getting it on my left clavicle area. Can't wait!

On to accountability, I'm fluctuating between 17-20 lbs loss so far. A bit frustrating, but I know I'm still healing inside, ect. Most between 249.6-251. And I measured today and I lost 12 inches on my hips! Yay for my first true NSV!

Where I work, we get TONS of goodies for the holidays and I've been really good the past few weeks (mainly b/c I didn't want to sabotaged the healing process). Last week and today = no good. My willpower was weak, I was weak. I caved. I have truffles, peanut brittle, toffee, and some other chocolate goodies. Ugh!!! Can't even calculate the calories, which drives me nuts! I'm so upset with myself, I really need to get my sweet tooth under control and get a better handle on my attitude about this. Other than that, I'm doing great with eating, good portions, recognizing my soft stops, not drinking water during or for an hour after, eating protein first, ect. I think I'm doing decent, but I want to do better. Tomorrow is another day to do that.

Can't believe it will be a month already this Thursday! Craziness. I'm excited to really get this thing started. I've been walking for the past week, so far, so good, in fact I love it! A bit boring, but it'll do for now. I did an hour tonight around my town and I loved it! Saw really nice homes, cool lights, some cute puppies, nice people. All in all, a good walk. I think I need to update my playlists, getting bored with the same crap.

Anyways, that's about it for now. Going to paint my nails/toe nails and relax. Ciao!

Sunday, December 11, 2011


Starting chicken, fish and tuna this week! Yahoo!!!

I believe I will be getting a tattoo for my bday next week. I have way too many ideas and they all mean something; but I'm thinking a line from a poem I wrote on my right foot or left shoulder blade. "Break Down the Walls, Break Down the Shame".

Yay! Off to bed, gotta try and get some sleep for work tmrw. :/


Wednesday, December 07, 2011

Follow up

I had my follow up appointment today with Dr. Davidson. It went VERY well. :) He was shocked when he saw that I lost 14 lbs so far in 2 weeks, he said "You are ahead of the game". Yay!

Incisions are fine, the rash is fine, he seems to think it's a yeast infection and recommended a antifungal creme, tried Rite Aid, but didn't find what he said "niacin" or something like that. I'll try again tmrw or Friday. It's not itchy anymore, so maybe it'll go away on its own.

I go back for my 2nd appointment on January 11th and he said I should get an adjustment then. A bit nervous, but that's what this is all about, so I'm down. :) He also said don't get nervous/worried/panicky if I start to get really hungry and can eat more, he said the internal inflammation will start to go away in the next few weeks and it will get tougher, but I have so much faith in myself, I just keep repeating "I got this" over and over. So far, so good. :)

Getting ready for some dinner, not sure what, but can't wait! I love not feeling hungry ALL the damn time.

Ciao, for now!

Monday, December 05, 2011


Kind of gross, but felt like posting it. It's insanely itchy sometimes and okay other times.

One day at a time

Scrambled egg w/ slice of cheese - check.

1/2 cup applesauce - check.

Protein drink - check.

Half of a red beet pickled egg - check.

Lots of water (w/ more coming) - check.

Dinner will be refried beans w/ salsa and cheese. Yummy!

I went and bought non fat cottage cheese (weis brand) and no sugar added apple butter from Strite's Orchard. Yum! First time trying cottage cheese, we'll see.

Felt pretty good today, minus a small stomachache in the afternoon. Got tons of compliments about how "skinny" I'm looking, yay! Always good to hear those. ;) It's really noticeable on my face and wrists. NSV's!!

Loving that my scale says I lost 11 lbs. since surgery. Yay! Clothes are looser, shoes are looser and I feel better already. Minus my rash around my port incision, found put it's common, but seems weird.

My follow-up appointment is this Wednesday at 2:45, can't wait to continue healing and really get things going, esp. with exercise. Maybe I'll get the go to start walking more.

Tons of holiday party things going on at work. But I feel good about not overdoing it anymore. We get tons of gift baskets filled with candy, sweets, cupcakes, popcorn, etc etc from now till the new year in my department. Can't wait to ignore those. :)

Luncheon this Friday, food party next Wednesday, a lawyer taking us out for lunch next Friday, and then a firm is having lunch catered to us on the 22nd. Time to put this band into gear and make great choices. I will, of course, be bringing my own food to all of these events, in case there's no mushies. :/


Sunday, December 04, 2011


I thought I was ready for my soft foods diet (starting tmrw!), but I'm a bit worried now. Ugh! So afraid of overdoing it or getting stuck already. :(

I just made hard boiled eggs, but after reading a bit more online, most people can't tolerate them. But in my aftercare book, it says hard-boiled, so I'll try one. Now, scrambled eggs, yes, def. a do. But they say "soft", which must be different than what I normally make. Ugh. How confusing. I still have plenty of puddings, protein drinks, but I want more. Def. going to be some mashed potatoes/baked potatoes this week, but holy cow am I nervous about starting this phase.

I need suggestions, more, I read applesauce too, which I have, but some say "strained", I'm pretty sure my applesauce isn't chunky. I'm also planning on refried beans, I've got some salsa and cheese, I have bought black beans so I can puree them for something different. It also says oatmeal, which I love, but I usually don't like it runny, so I'll try to cope with that. I think I'll probably try cottage cheese/sweet potatoes for the first time as well. I also bought some canned green beans (this is suggested in my book) from the Dr. I do have some fruit in water peaches, no sweetener.

I'm super excited to add more variety, but very nervous about being too "full" to even get any real food down. My eyes are def. bigger than my "stoma" at this point. :P I'll just take it one minute at a time, chew, chew, no drinking while eating, small bites, etc. I got this!

But any other suggestions or recipes would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!


Thursday, December 01, 2011

Another day...

Still feeling not quite like myself and getting restless and annoyed. My stomach is bothering me quite a bit today. Was constipated this morning, now it's the opposite. Ugh. Ended up taking off work today, didn't sleep worth shit last night, very restless.

Got in my protein, easier than I thought it would be. Water on the other hand is much tougher, but doable.

Back to work tomorrow, busy, busy. But, it's the weekend! I need to go shopping for a surprise baby shower and then grocery shopping for the soft foods phase (yay!).