Monday, February 25, 2013

Weigh In Day

Weight last week:199.6
Weight Today:198
Weight loss this Week: - 1.6 lbs
Weight Loss Total: 71.8 lbs.
Woo hoo! Movin' right along and LOVING it. 
Just got home from working 4 hours at Bath & Body Works, so of course, I'm awake right now. Just had a yummy skinny cow chocolate ice cream cup. Mmm! Still way under for calories. :)
I am pretty sore now from working those 4 hours and from that hour of a pretty intense zumba earlier.
Back to work tomorrow, booooo! Hopefully hitting up some more zumba tomorrow as well. 
Well, that is all for now.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Weigh In Day/Onederland!!!

Weight last week: 200.6
Weight Today:199.6
Weight loss this Week: - 1 lbs
Weight Loss Total: 70.2 lbs
WOO HOO! I'm in onederland baby!!  

Finally,  a long time coming and can't wait to see the number keep going down, down, down. I'm now about 50-60 lbs. from goals, feels amazing!! 

I've been getting crazy migraines mixed with nausea, dizziness, pressure. Pretty sure they're related to my sinus issues, maybe even a deviated septum. Who knows. I was down and out from Thursday evening until Saturday. I slept soooo much. The past 2 days have been going well (knock on wood), I'm hoping tomorrow is good too, b/c I need to get back to the gym on a regular basis and back to babysitting on Wednesday evenings. 
I've been tight with the band for a few days on and off too. But today is worse, been PB'ing way too much, so I'm taking it easy right now.

Not much else going on, just watching tv the rest of today and relaxing.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Weigh In Day

Weight last week: 202.2
Weight Today: 200.6
Weight loss this Week: - 1.6 lbs
Weight Loss Total: 69.2 lbs
Woo hoo! Onederland is soooooooo damn close now! This is MAJOR motivation for the week ahead. I got this!!
That is all. Bout to go finish watching The Walking Dead marathon. Ciao!

Friday, February 08, 2013


I'm Megan and I ate a whole pint of Ben & Jerry's Red Velvet. That's right, all 1,000 calories of it. Blah! I let me emotions/feelings get the best of me and wasn't paying attention and just sat there and ate the whole entire container. It's NOT okay, but I'm going to move on and do better today. I deserve better. I had a lapse in judgement and I will not buy again.


Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Rough day...

Having a very rough go at it today. I really do not know when this started, but I'm feeling really down right now. I think it started when I started not feeling well. I don't get sick too often anymore, so I guess that really brings me down. I don't know, it's work too, for sure. I'm starting to really not like working there anymore, I hate the work, I hate some of the people, I hate the drama, the gossip, the nitpicking, the professionalism, etc. I was told something I did today was a "no-no", I think that might have been the push me over the edge point. I lost it internally. I hate confrontation, so I just internalized it. I actually was close to crying today, the tears were in my eyes, that rarely happens anymore...

I'm in a funk, for sure. Went a bit overboard with food today too, not crazy bad, but bad enough. Luckily, I did yoga at lunch time and that helped a bit. I was supposed to go babysit at the Y tonight, but I didn't, I was absolutely down and out by the time 4:15 rolled around, mentally and physically not good.

So, here I am. I wasn't sure I was going to write a post tonight, but I couldn't keep it in anymore. I feel so shameful sometimes, if I'm not on my best, if I'm not working out or eating perfectly. I know there's room for error/mistakes/learning new things, but I get so down on myself, but thankfully, I can easily pick myself back up tomorrow. It's a new day and that's just what I will do.

When things get hard, I notice I tend to start having doubts about other areas in life, or regretting things. Such as school (or lack of), money (or lack of), job, weight, etc. etc.

I got this. I'm going to keep working hard, fighting my inner demons, moving forward, looking forward to an awesome future filled with love, hope, happiness, ups/downs, laughter, tears, and the list goes on.