Jogging/Running

For those of you who do either, what weight were you when you first started? I just want to do it casually, but I struggle and can't get more than 10 feet.

What were your steps to get where you are now? Not a big treadmill fan, but I'll so it if necessary.

Thanks!

Weekly Weigh-In

Doing this from my phone.

I had my weigh in this morning and surprisingly, I only gained back .6. So, just back where I was last week. I got this. Major wake up call.

Ciao for now.

This past week hasn't been the best food wise. I'm disappointed in myself. I know only I can do this, no one else. I did excellent with my exercise, went every day but Thursday. I went to a happy hour for work and ate some bad shit (pizza, bread, wing). Not much of it, but still bad choices, because that's all they offered. :/ Then we went to Savannah's (a strip club) and I actually thoroughly enjoyed myself. :D I had 2 kamikaze's there and then nothing but water. I took off yesterday and so did Brian, so I did zumba and weights in the morning to make up for not going Thursday evening. I did okay with eating yesterday.

Today, I took zumba at 9am. And we just got back from Olive Garden for dinner. I had a $5 off coupon, so we decided to go tonight. I did not eat everything, BUT man I am full. Grrr. I had one breadstick, 1/3 of my chicken alfredo, 1/2 of their triple chocolate strata cake, and half a cup of coffee. Not bad, but still not great. I'm still under for the day, BUT I will NOT be surprised if I have a 1-2 lb. gain tomorrow morning for weigh-in.

I ended up going to the Salvation Army after Zumba Wednesday night to meet my mom there. I ended up getting 3 shirts and 3 pants for $12. Not bad. 2 of the pants don't quite fit yet, but the shirts are great, I esp. LOVE this red one I found for $2.

Tomorrow I'm FINALLY getting to a bridal expo at the local Zembo Shrine in Harrisburg. Yay! I'm so excited, I've only been to one for my sis' wedding 3 years ago. And now I'm going for me. :) I hope I win some cool stuff, maybe a trip, money, goodies for the wedding. I'll take anything at this point. I'm meeting up with my girls there and my mom, so I'm siked. :D

Speaking of wedding stuff, my mom found another rustic place in Marysville out the valley. It's MUCH cheaper than the Ribbon Mill, which would allow us more wiggle room for other things. Yay! Not sure when we'll get to go look at it, but it's called Whitetail Lodge.

Well, that's all for now, off to watch some tv and browse some more wedding stuff.

Ugh.

I HAVE got to stop getting on the scale daily. :/

Weekly Weigh-In

Weight on Surgery Date: 269.8 lbs.

Weight Today: 245.4 lbs.

Weight loss this Week: .6 lbs

Weight Loss Total: 24.4 lbs

Not bad, this was my first official weigh-in on Blogger, so I must keep this going every Sunday. Any loss is better than NO loss. :)

Last night I met up with Robyn, Cat and Stacey. We met up at Roy's in Baltimore and had a delicious meal. It was a mini BOOBS meet up, yay! I really hope I can make the big BOOBS meet up in September, just depends on my friends wedding date and also money, obviously. 

Cat (standing), Stace (sitting), Me (standing) and Robyn (sitting)

Going to hit up Zumba today from 1230-130, yay! Can't wait! I didn't "work out" the past 2 days and I'm feeling like an ass for it. So I'm ready to get back in there today and sweat a whole bunch and burn a whole bunch off. I need to keep my ass together this coming work week, no more stress eating and no more excuses. I got this. I want to drop 1-2 lbs a week, not .6. :)

Printing out some coupons for grocery shopping today, possibly hit up Target as well after Zumba. All before this stupid round of freezing rain/sleet hits us around 5pm. I had to cancel our showing of the Carlisle Ribbon Mill for the reception because of this crap weather. Oh well. I really hope we can hold off on the weather this coming Sunday though so my ladies and I can go to the Zembo for a bridal expo. :) Exciting stuff!

Well, enough for now, back to my couponing,then I have to head out around noon. 

Ciao!

Baltimore

Okay ladies, I somehow managed to lose e-mails/etc and for some reason, the messaging on blogger is not working right now. Hopefully you see this, because I never got phone numbers either. :/

Are we still on for Baltimore with all the adverse weather tomorrow?

Thoughts and ideas

Home from Zumba, my second love. *blush* Let's just say my fave pair of workout pants are now falling off during Zumba AND my shoes are driving me nuts. It's pay weekend, I may just go find me some new pants and new shoes. I want the new Nike Musique shoes. Going to try them on maybe this weekend, hope I like them. 

Was researching brooch bouquet's last night, I def. HAVE to have one for my wedding next year. I'm def. thinking about making my own, because the average price for the ones I like are $500. Yeah, no. :P So, I found a whole bunch of goldtone brooches, flower brooches, stuff like that on ebay today and I think I'm going to start bidding/buying them. :) SO, if ANY of you have or know of anyone who has flower brooches, birds, branches, trees, in gold, brown, green, orange, any shades of those would be greatly appreciated. I would gladly buy them or if you so wish, you can donate them to the "Megan wants a brooch bouquet" fund. :) Thanks!

It would look something like this: 

Not much else going on, doing better with my eating the past 2 days, but then I had a 6 pack of oreos today at work because I somehow ran out of my luna bars, grrrr! Stupid stupid. BUT I did refuse to go to a happy hour tonight that would have consisted of only fried finger foods and alcohol. It was free nonetheless, but I'd rather do zumba. This is a realization when you know you're doing something right. I was proud of myself, even though Brian wanted me to accompany him to the happy hour, I refused. I must do this for myself and no one else, even if it means pissing people off. 

Tomorrow I am getting a gel manicure. Anyone who knows me, knows I can't keep polish on for more than like 4-5 days, mostly 2-3 days though. I am a polish whore. Yes, I am, first step is admitting it. hehe. Anyways, I had a gel manicure about a year or so ago and I liked it, but the girl didn't do that great of a job. The place I'm going to tomorrow was recommended to me from a girl at work that gets gels done there and her nails look great! My nails are kind of crappy right now, their strong, but just crappy. About 3 of them have slits on the side, pretty far down, so I want get something done, but not acrylics, cause they ruin your nails. So we'll see.

Stress

Well, it's been a while. I've been doing okay...had my fill last week and so far, so good. I overate like twice so far and it's VERY uncomfortable, but not unbearable. I've been doing better, but today was not a good eating day, I def. eat when I'm stressed. I decided it was a wise idea (even though I had luna bars in my drawer) to get a pack of pop tarts from the vending machine. UGH! And I ate both of them, what a waste of 420 calories. Awful decision. I'm down about another 2 lbs, nothing crazy, but it works for me.

Work has been....annoying lately. To say the least, I'm about fed up with it. I applied for a position at a company  in Enola that I would love to work for. They received my resume/cover letter today, so I'm hoping I hear something soon on an interview. Eeeh. Not sure how much it pays, but it sounds like a great job and I think it would probably be about what I make now.

I have been wedding planning lately, probably going to look at a couple places for the reception in the next week. We are either doing October 12th or 19th of 2013. And in my eyes, it's NEVER too early to start planning. I refuse to be a bridezilla and wait til the year of to plan, too much stress and I don't need it right now. So, it's fun now. I've been on Etsy.com, Pinterest, and various other sites just getting TONS of ideas. I also have a book we got from B&N's. I purchased "Will you be my..." cards on Etsy and their gorgeous! I asked my Maid of Honor already and I'm meeting with my 3 bridemaids for dinner this Friday (along with my mom) at Applebee's to give them their cards. I can't wait! Exciting stuff. Can't believe we're finally getting married.

Not much else going on, just working, exercising, logging food, reading, watching tv, sleeping and wedding planning. :)

I also need to pick a set day to do "weigh ins"...I think it will be Sundays. Hold me accountable!
Ciao for now!

Confindence.

Tomorrow is the day! I go in at 9 am to see my HOT surgeon, Dr. Davidson. He will be doing my first fill for me, I'm so anxious and nervous and excited. I'm taking a half day and not going into work until 12:15, yay! I really don't know what to expect, so we'll see tomorrow.

And non weight loss related...I want to go back to college. I currently have an AA in Humanities, Language and the Arts from HACC (took me 6 years to get). I'm not good with tests and my focus/motivation/determination was lacking for most of those year. I now regret not continuing on to a bachelor program. I've been feeling like I want to move on. I've always been interested in writing (all types); but I honestly believe I lacked the confidence to achieve my goals back then.  I was told in my final writing/reporting class that I was "inconsistent". That really stuck with me and bothered me, and still does. I feel like I am more than just a Secretary II at an insurance company. I don't believe it to be my career. There's a possible opportunity (again) to get a position they call "Claims Trainee". I interviewed before, but got beat out by someone most of us can't stand. Oh well. They haven't opened it back up yet, but I honestly don't think I want it now. It's a lot more work and I want to be able to focus on something else I enjoy. It also pays more and yes, in the low/middle class society, money talks.

Then comes my fears. I fear that I will pay all this additional money (aka loans) which I'm sure we'll be paying FOREVER. I fear that I won't ever get my "dream" job. I want to write for a newspaper/magazine/newsletter, even if just freelance/part-time right now. I've tried applying places for the experience, but everyone wants a bachelor's degree. It frustrates me. :(

Central Penn College has a transfer program with HACC from my AA degree to a BA degree called "Corporate Communications". Description of Degree.

I really want to do it, but for some reason, I'm scared to take that step. It would all be online, which is great for me, I did great with online courses at HACC and it wouldn't interfere with work. I'm just afraid I'll lose sight or get side tracked between work, school, wedding planning and my new "lifestyle". I really want to do it, but I'm torn. I don't want to feel "stuck" anymore.

I asked for information and a counselor called me the same day. Ahh! I want to do this, just nervous. I believe it all stems from my lack of self-esteem. I never really put myself out there and I suffered for it. :/

A new day

So, it's been a while. With the holidays and all, it was a bit nuts. Then I proceeded to catch a cold last week and am still slowly getting over it as of today. I went back to Zumba tonight and wow! I missed it a lot, but man, it was tough, but I made it and I worked hard and sweated my ass off! 35 minutes in my asthma was kicking my ass, my chest was tight and I thought for sure I was going to have to leave early. :( But I toughed it out and stayed. Very proud of myself, only had some minor aches and I didn't fall. :P

My eating hasn't been the greatest, the holidays were VERY intimidating and my determination wasn't quite there. I succumbed to the MANY temptations and had MANY unwanted calories. From cookies, truffles, cakes and pies, woo! I'm glad it's over though. I have a problem with sweets, need to work on this. Esp. because I had more than my fair share of everything and it was super hard to track most of it on myfitnesspal because a lot of it didn't have any nutritional info.

I have got to fight harder and be more focused. I get my first fill next week on the 11th and to be honest, I'm super worried about the outcome of it. I could care less about the actual needle/process, but more about the after affects, I've heard about the fills sometimes not working until a week or so later and then getting stuck. I guess I just need to take it a day at a time.

I haven't been the best with eating my protein first either. We have had a love affair with Panera Bread lately; especially their soups. And I know we're not really supposed to eat just soup, but man, it's yummy and only 300 calories. :) and I really don't snack at night anymore unless it's a popsicle (sugar free), yogurt, pudding or luna bar.

I need to know if anyone has ever done or heard of the Warrior Dash? My brother and sis in law are doing the one on May 19th in Maryland. It's 3.02 miles of hell (this is their statement, not mine). On their site, it shows all of the obstacles, some look super fun, but others scare the living shit out of me! Esp. the climbing ones because my arms suck and I am weak in that area. They want to do it as a team and end as a team, which is great. Go have fun and get muddy. My sis in law has MS, so I understand, but I feel like I will be more of a letdown and dragging people down, esp. with my asthma and weight. Although, I'm hoping to lose quite a bit more between now and then, but they want to know by this Sunday, the 8th. I'm torn.

Something great, I've been maintaining for the past 2/3 weeks, BUT the past 2 days, I've been staying under 250, yay! I broke the barrier! Dr. Davidson (my surgeon) said most people gain or stay the same during bandster hell, I'm hoping I can prove that wrong next week. I'm at 248.9 right now. AND the Y added another zumba on Wednesday evening's at 5:30, which is perfect, cause I didn't like their 8pm one only. So NOW, I can go Mon, Tues, Wed, Thurs, Sat and Sun. I love zumba. :) A bit much, I def. need to add strength training. I need to get on this, stat.

Well, that's about all for now. 

Happy new years!!

This WILL be my year. Only I can change my ways. Can't wait to get back to exercising next week. :D