I've been having a rough go at it lately. Mentally, I am just not okay for a few weeks now, maybe more...
I've been stuck between 205.6-209.4 (yes, I know the specifics) for about a month now. I know why, I know how to fix it, but I haven't and I hate myself for it. But I also know not to completely put myself down, because I am still exercising almost every single day. I started the Couch 2 5K program 3 weeks ago, I plan on doing Week 3, Day 2 tonight after weights/zumba. I still do zumba like 4-5 days a week, just depends. I need to get back into strength training more reguarly, I got off that bandwagon and that's not okay either. I truly haven't weight lifted in about a month...
I've changed up my routine, I'm still measuring, weighing, eating protein first, still constantly working on not drinking water while eating (I do pretty good), portions are decent. But I have been on a sweets binge, it wasn't so bad until about 2 weeks ago, for no reason, I just lost the will or motivation to say no. I did really bad the past week, and I had all intentions of doing better today, but not so far. We had a catered homemade lunch (turkey, mashed, veggies, salad, rolls, etc). I did fine, but had 3 cookies and a diet coke. That's the other thing, freakin' diet soda! I never had an issue with NOT having it before, so now that I started drinking it again, I want to stop this nonsense. I then came back to my department after lunch and proceeded to have 6-8 pieces of Whitman's chocolate (caramels, toffee, etc). I feel awful, mentally and physically. I'm struggling and it's not okay...
I often feel like I do worse at work, it must be the stress of it, b/c I tend to not eat sweets at home, probably because I don't buy them. I really want this, I want to get the next 60-65 lbs. off, I really do, I want it, I NEED it. I want to have babies in about 2-3 years, I want to look awesome in my wedding dress in 10 months. I need to get this stress/sweets eating under control and fast.
PS - sorry for all the other posts, the giveaway ones, but I LOVE entering giveaways and it worked! I won a Julep nail polish and nail glitter. :) Woo!
I've been stuck between 205.6-209.4 (yes, I know the specifics) for about a month now. I know why, I know how to fix it, but I haven't and I hate myself for it. But I also know not to completely put myself down, because I am still exercising almost every single day. I started the Couch 2 5K program 3 weeks ago, I plan on doing Week 3, Day 2 tonight after weights/zumba. I still do zumba like 4-5 days a week, just depends. I need to get back into strength training more reguarly, I got off that bandwagon and that's not okay either. I truly haven't weight lifted in about a month...
I've changed up my routine, I'm still measuring, weighing, eating protein first, still constantly working on not drinking water while eating (I do pretty good), portions are decent. But I have been on a sweets binge, it wasn't so bad until about 2 weeks ago, for no reason, I just lost the will or motivation to say no. I did really bad the past week, and I had all intentions of doing better today, but not so far. We had a catered homemade lunch (turkey, mashed, veggies, salad, rolls, etc). I did fine, but had 3 cookies and a diet coke. That's the other thing, freakin' diet soda! I never had an issue with NOT having it before, so now that I started drinking it again, I want to stop this nonsense. I then came back to my department after lunch and proceeded to have 6-8 pieces of Whitman's chocolate (caramels, toffee, etc). I feel awful, mentally and physically. I'm struggling and it's not okay...
I often feel like I do worse at work, it must be the stress of it, b/c I tend to not eat sweets at home, probably because I don't buy them. I really want this, I want to get the next 60-65 lbs. off, I really do, I want it, I NEED it. I want to have babies in about 2-3 years, I want to look awesome in my wedding dress in 10 months. I need to get this stress/sweets eating under control and fast.
PS - sorry for all the other posts, the giveaway ones, but I LOVE entering giveaways and it worked! I won a Julep nail polish and nail glitter. :) Woo!
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