Happy New Year

And here's to getting my shit together this year...

Day by day

I've been having a rough go at it lately. Mentally, I am just not okay for a few weeks now, maybe more...

I've been stuck between 205.6-209.4 (yes, I know the specifics) for about a month now. I know why, I know how to fix it, but I haven't and I hate myself for it. But I also know not to completely put myself down, because I am still exercising almost every single day. I started the Couch 2 5K program 3 weeks ago, I plan on doing Week 3, Day 2 tonight after weights/zumba. I still do zumba like 4-5 days a week, just depends. I need to get back into strength training more reguarly, I got off that bandwagon and that's not okay either. I truly haven't weight lifted in about a month...

I've changed up my routine, I'm still measuring, weighing, eating protein first, still constantly working on not drinking water while eating (I do pretty good), portions are decent. But I have been on a sweets binge, it wasn't so bad until about 2 weeks ago, for no reason, I just lost the will or motivation to say no. I did really bad the past week, and I had all intentions of doing better today, but not so far. We had a catered homemade lunch (turkey, mashed, veggies, salad, rolls, etc). I did fine, but had 3 cookies and a diet coke. That's the other thing, freakin' diet soda! I never had an issue with NOT having it before, so now that I started drinking it again, I want to stop this nonsense. I then came back to my department after lunch and proceeded to have 6-8 pieces of Whitman's chocolate (caramels, toffee, etc). I feel awful, mentally and physically. I'm struggling and it's not okay...

I often feel like I do worse at work, it must be the stress of it, b/c I tend to not eat sweets at home, probably because I don't buy them. I really want this, I want to get the next 60-65 lbs. off, I really do, I want it, I NEED it. I want to have babies in about 2-3 years, I want to look awesome in my wedding dress in 10 months. I need to get this stress/sweets eating under control and fast.

 PS - sorry for all the other posts, the giveaway ones, but I LOVE entering giveaways and it worked! I won a Julep nail polish and nail glitter. :) Woo!

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Weigh In Day

Weight last week: 207.4

Weight Today: 205.6

Weight loss this Week: - 1.8 lbs

Weight Loss Total: 65.9 lbs

 

Yay! Wasn't quite sure how this week was going pan out, but I'm pretty stoked about this loss! 

 

I started the Couch 2 5K last Sunday and finished Week 1 on Thursday evening, felt pretty damn good. Starting Week 2, Day 1 in the next few hours here. I am scheduled to work at Bath & Body Works tonight with a call in shift from 5-8 and a shift from 8-12a. Can't wait! Hope the displays are cool and fun. :)

 

I'm still SOOOOOO close to 199 I can taste it, I am so excited to get there. I WILL throw a party of some sort, or buy myself something lol. 

 

Started Christmas shopping yesterday, since I worked Black Friday. We got quite a bit done, but still need most of his family and some of mine. And I still need to send out Christmas cards too. 

 

I started watching "Once Upon a Time" (ABC show) on Netflix last week or maybe a week 1/2 ago and I just finished Season 1 last night, I am OBSESSED with this show. Apparently Season 2 just ended a week or so ago, so I'm tying to find it free online, still working on that. I MUST watch. :P

 

Not much else going on, dealing with a rash, it seems to be going away, we'll see. I have a follow up appointment on Tuesday with my regular Doc, so hopefully no dermatologist is needed right now unless it comes back. I got a steroid injection and that seems to have worked. And I was taking Benadryl for the intense itching to help at work and with sleeping. 

 

Working M-F this week, I have some training on Wednesday, volunteering Wednesday evening as usual (missed last week due to rash), seeing a friend tomorrow for lunch with some other people at the Pizza Grille, yum!, we're getting a catered lunch on Thursday from a law firm and Friday is our Holiday Luncheon (free catered lunch, games, prizes, giveaways, bingo, music, cookie exchange - which I am heading up) and an early dismissal at 3pm. Can't wait! 

 

And I'm turning 28 in about a week and a half on the 18th. Ahh! One year closer to being 30, which I am dreading. And it will be 2013 before I know it and wedding planning will be in crazy full effect. 

 

Ciao!