Weigh In Day, etc.

Weight last week: 214.2

Weight Today: 213.8

Weight loss this Week: - .4 lbs

Weight Loss Total: 57.7 lbs

A small loss, but a loss nonetheless. :D I have faith in myself and my journey. I have been having some heartburn lately, 3x  in the past month, so I need to address that my lap band check up tomorrow. I hope I'm not tight, I don't think I am, b/c I have no other symptoms. I would actually like a small fill tomorrow, I'm still getting physically hungry between my main meals. We'll see. :)

Progress is progress, no matter how small.

A little bit TMI here, I'm STILL recovering from a nasty yeast infection from about 2 weeks ago. Ugh! I took a diflucan last Tuesday, it worked within 3 days, but I still have a major irritation at the top. (Ladies, you know what I mean). Then, to top this off, yesterday while at work, I started getting major period like cramps around 8am. I then went to the bathroom and found myself to be bleeding moderately. More so than my normal period. Double UGH! I pretty much had an anxiety attack, thinking the worst, miscarriage or something bad like cancer. :( But I called my gyno's office and spoke to the one nurse. Basically, she thinks it's my birth control. Just another reason I hate being on birth control, grrr! Basically, she said I need to take it every day at the EXACT same time, well, that works for like 2 % of people, I'm busy! I fall asleep, wake up and take it. It just depends. It's not consistent. I've been doing that for years and never had any issues and I've been on this BC for about 2 years, so this is weird to me. But, we'll try it every day at 10pm and see. She said I will probably have  bleeding for another few days and then it should stop. Should. Key word. Then I will more than likely get my normal scheduled period in 2 weeks. Awesome. Then I'll probably have another yeast infection. I need to get this shit figured out, I can't stand this crap.

Moving on. Wedding planning is super fun, especially when you give yourself enough time to plan it. But, I'm finding that Brian isn't too thrilled about it. Which is fine, but at the same time, I feel like he should care more. I don't know, he's super busy all the time with work, and then works at home and is grouchy. I feel alone sometimes. I know I'm busy too, I workout whenever I can, started a part time job (working only one Sunday so far, but scheduled for next Tuesday evening) and probably more with the holidays coming up and then I babysit on Wednesday evenings. But I force myself to stay positive no matter what, I have my down moments, of course, I'm not perfect and I don't want to be. I just feel like I want a bit more effort in general, not wedding planning, just affection. That's all. :/ I love him to death. <3

I think this is all for now. 

Ciao!