Monday, November 28, 2011

*sigh*

Is it normal to be completely and utterly scared at one week post op??!

I'm freaking out about all the bad stuff. It's awful, I'm so afraid of failing myself and this tool. :(

I'm so scared and feel alone, but I know I'm not. I don't want to feel like this, I was so confident before. Why now?!

I decided to go to bed early tonight, because I'm going back to work tmrw. I guess I'm nervous about that, making sure I can get my protein and water in there.

I developed this freakin' painful red lump under my arm, like, on my side boob and of course have bad thougts about that now too. Ugh! I honestly think it's the new sports bra my mom got me to wear while I'm healing, it rubs right there.

I think I'm conditioned to be negative, but I was making great progress on that, so I will fix that.

On another note, got in 67 grams of protein today, and about 4-5 cups of water (32-40 oz). Not the best, but good nonetheless. I'm also finding that all I'm eating during full liquids is my protein shakes (milk or water), and puddings (sugar free of course). Not a big soup person or jello. Guess that's okay, only one more week to go until soft foods!! Yay!

Okay, that's enough for now, ciao!

Meet Me On Monday!


Blogging is a funny thing...we tell our most intimate thoughts for all to read and yet most of the time I find myself sitting and wondering, "who is this person!?" I know them...but yet I don't know them! I want to know who the person is behind all those words so I thought of a great way for all of us to "meet" each other!

Every Sunday Never Growing Old will post five get to know you questions that you can copy and paste into your own Monday post and we can all learn a little more about each and every one of us!!

Java will add a linky so we can follow who participates and get to know them better!! Be sure to link the POST and not just your whole blog!!



Questions:

1. I really need to clean my _________?
2. What food makes you think of Christmas?
3. If you could choose to stay a certain age forever, what age would it be? 
4. What was your first paying job?
5. Have you read the Twilight series?
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My Answers:

1.       I really need to clean my _________? I'm not sure, my bf has been taking care of the cleaning the past week, so nothing really. But eventually my closet/drawers! :P

2.      What food makes you think of Christmas?
Anything red/green together. 

3.      If you could choose to stay a certain age forever, what age would it be?
Oh boy, I have NO idea, I'm only 26, I haven't lived long enough to choose, so I won't.

4.      What was your first paying job?  Mutzabaugh's Market and babysitting.

5.      Have you read the Twilight series?  Yes, LOVE them.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

The World According to Eggface

I have been reading blogs for a long time, and have had one myself since I was about 15.

I am absolutely in LOVE with theworldaccordingtoeggface! Her recipes are fantastic, and I can't wait to try more now that I actually have a lap band. :)

I am hoping to win this giveaway she has going on right now for the holidays, check it out: http://theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com/


A new day.

Can't sleep. This surgery has my sleeping patterns all messed up.

I did much better with the protein today, was able to get in 78 grams. Not as much water as I wanted, but about 6 cups.

Is it normal to feel insanely bloated and full after only about 2-3 oz. of liquid? It's driving me nuts. It takes forever to get 8 oz. down, even water. But I'm doing it, guess that's all that matters. Steady and slow, this isn't a race. :)

I just can't wait till about 7-8 more days so I can have eggs, oatmeal yummy mushies. :)

That's all for mow, back to my movie watching.

Ciao!

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Roar!

That's the noise my stomach has been making all day today. Ugh! It's like a demon baby trying to escape, it's sooooo loud and kind of annoying sometimes.

It needs to keep it down in there. I did rather well with my protein/water intake today. I was able to get in 68 grams of protein and TONS of water, lost count after 9 cups. Working on a few more, even though it's technically Saturday already. It got a bit easier, hopefully tomorrow is good too. I just am worried about returning to work and making sure I have stuff with me, so I'm not struggling.

I just can't wait to start the soft foods stage, here I come eggs and oatmeal! :P

Did some shopping at the mall today, it was a bit nuts, even for me. I usually have decent patience, not today. lol. We left there and I was pretty much passed out an hour later, tired and hungry. Blah. Probably go back out later today to Target/Kohls and who knows where else.

Well, that's about it for now, getting a bit tired and hungry (again!), probably just go to bed at this point.

Ciao!


Friday, November 25, 2011

I'm alive! :)

I'm here! Just been busy and relaxing. It's been a long two days. Two days already? lol. Yes.

Wooh. Well, basically, my surgery was set for 2:15p and I was to arrive at 1p for check in. I got there around 1245-1p, got all checked in and weighed (269) and then I was called back to the waiting area to get gowned up, IV'd, pee, etc. My mom and Brian came back then around 1:30ish. Well, then we found out that Dr. Davidson had an emergency surgery right before we got there and he was now behind. :( This made things a bit more tense for me, as I starving at this point. I took naps on and off, watched some TV, chatted. I was finally told I would be going around 7p for surgery. Woo hoo!

Surgery was a great success! Dr. Davidson told my mom I was "textbook", it was that easy, no complications whatsoever, no hernia, etc. Yay! I got out of recovery around 9ish and got to my room at 9:15p. My mom and Brian were there waiting for me, but I was pretty much passed out still, so they left. I was then in and out of sleep the rest of the night/morning. Not the most comfortable sleeping situation, BUT it was nice to be catered on ALL night long.

I got up and walked the hall once around midnight, had some vicodin at 12:30a, then slept til about 2a. At this point, couldn't sleep much. I was able to have ice chips, water, juice and a popsicle through the night/morning.  I had some more vicodin at 6:30a and pretty much watched some tv til about 9, slept again, then called Brian to head on over as I was told my discharge papers were ready. We got out of there around 11. We then headed over to the Clinic to pick up a sample bag of their products. Then we headed to CVS to get my vicodin filled and to pick up some random stuff. And home was finally in site, yay!

Slept a whole bunch on and off yesterday, tried my hardest to get in lots of water and protein. It was tough and still is as I end the clear liquid face, I'm hoping tomorrow when I start the full liquids it will get a bit easier. :/ I slept til 11am this morning and then got up, showered and headed to my mom's for Thanksgiving. Got there around noon or so. Brian had a nice dinner and got TONS of leftovers and desserts for himself. I slept a good bit after I popped some vicodin. I had a jello there and 2 things of protein (clear) liquids (one beef and one peach/mango). I also am finding that when I start getting major gas pains in my tummy, I take 2 of the gas x strips on my tongue and it helps to release it. Yay! But I had major gas pain earlier and walked it off. Then we headed to his mom's house in Harrisburg for another dinner around 6pm. He had some more food while I relaxed on the couch and played some UNO. I stood up a bit and walked around too. There I had some more vicodin around 8p and had a bunch of water/protein drinks. We watched the Ice Age christmas special and then the Very Gaga Thanksgiving (loved it!).

And here we are now. Just got home a bit ago, drinking another protein drink (grape) and I actually like this one a lot. My incisions are doing great, just itchy right now. Still getting LOTS of gas pains, but also getting them out as well. Sitting here now watching some tv and reading some magazines. :) Tomorrow, I believe we will be venturing out in the afternoon/evening to get some Bath and Body Works stuff with our coupons and the deals going on.

I'm a bit worried about being able to get the recommended protein amount and the water intake. And also about figuring out of my soft stops, I can't stop thinking about it. A bit stressed about that part and it's only been 2 days, so I know I'll figure it out eventually, just don't want to screw this up.

Well, this is all for now, still a bit fuzzy and tired.

Ciao!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Waiting...

Dr. Davidson is running behind, had an emergency. Waiting patiently...

Monday, November 21, 2011

Meet Me On Monday!


Blogging is a funny thing...we tell our most intimate thoughts for all to read and yet most of the time I find myself sitting and wondering, "who is this person!?" I know them...but yet I don't know them! I want to know who the person is behind all those words so I thought of a great way for all of us to "meet" each other!

Every Sunday Never Growing Old will post five get to know you questions that you can copy and paste into your own Monday post and we can all learn a little more about each and every one of us!!


Questions:

1. I wish I had more time to _________?
2. What is your favorite kind of soup?
3. Where will you eat Thanksgiving dinner? 
4. What is your favorite time of day?
5. Did you start Christmas shopping yet?


My Answers:

 1. I wish I had more time to _________?Spend with family.


2. What is your favorite kind of soup?
Tomato soup, potato soup and clam chowder.


3. Where will you eat Thanksgiving dinner? 
Nowhere this year, right out of a cup filled with water and most likely jello/pudding, protein powder. Or all of the above, lol.


4. What is your favorite time of day?
Evening, between 7-11p

5. Did you start Christmas shopping yet?Nope, not really in the mood yet.

Getting banded in t-minus 14.45 hours. Woot woot! Trying to stay up late, watch some movies/tv, relax, drink my water before midnight and then only can have 6 oz. between midnight-9am. :( Then things get real. Nothing to eat/drink after 9am until after surgery. Surgery is scheduled for 2:15p, I am to be at the hospital at 1p. My mom is picking myself and Brian up and we'll be heading there around noon. 

See ya on the flip side!!

ONE DAY!

Nervous, excited, anxious, hopeful, determined.

That is all.

More tomorrow.

Friday, November 18, 2011

BYOC



It’s Friday and that means it’s time for another installment of BYOC! That’s Bring Your Own Crazy brought to you from the FABULOUS DRAZIL!! We answer 5 questions in an effort to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy and paste to your own blog if you so desire – and ENJOY!


I’m going to do a Thanksgiving themed BYOC this week (it was Jenny’s idea)!
1. What is your FAVORITE part of Thanksgiving?

Being with family, we (Brian and I) go to my mom's for dinner around 2p, but we usually get their a couple hours earlier. Then we hang out for a bit and then head to his mom's in Harrisburg, where we eat more. Blah! Then we head home and sleep. :)

2. How many Thanksgiving family events will you attend?
2, same every year. This year MAY be different though. Depends on how I'm feeling after surgery (which is 2 days before), but I have all intentions of going to both places.
3. What’s your biggest Thanksgiving tradition?
Um, I don't think we really have any to be honest. Just eating, watching tv (parade, football, etc), sleeping.

4. Do you Black Friday shop the day after Thanksgiving?

Yes, have been for years. I used to go with my dad/sis' for a while, but for the past 2 years I went with my mom and her friend Lori, we do it early (3-4a), breakfast, shop, lunch, shop some more. :) But not sure about that this year either, depends how I feel, I'll prolly venture out for a few.
5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog world.
Real life: Well, work went WAY too slow this week, but I made it. Tonight, I'm going to see Breaking Dawn with my honey at 9:40. Then tmrw is Zumba at 9am, then not sure what else. I have to go shopping very soon to get my post-op supplies. Monday is back to work, then Tuesday is surgery day!!!! woo hoo!

Blog life: Been updating like crazy, reading everyone's posts. Can't wait to update next week about my journey.

4 days!

I can't believe it's only 4 days until surgery, aah! Nerves are def. hitting me now and all the bad negative thoughts are coming out. Ugh.

I just want to be on the road to recovery and starting the real journey of it all. I'm not having second thoughts or anything, but def. having thoughts of "what if this doesn't work for me?" or "what if i fuck this up for myself?". I know these are all normal, so I'm okay, just normal pre-op nerves.

I still have to go shopping for my supplies for the clear and full liquids portions of the post-op diet. That'll be 11 1/2 days worth, so hopefully I get enough and don't have to send people on a scavenger hunt. I have my food scale (for later in the process), got my first 2 containers of Unjury all ready to go.

Well, that's all for now since I'm writing this on my phone.

Ciao til next time...

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

ONE WEEK!

I can't believe it's one week to go already! aaaah! Finally! Now let's hope for a speedy and safe recovery.

Support group last night was great, although I felt the speaker (Drayer PT) wasn't all that great and kind of boring. BUT, my surgeon was there! Can we say woohoo? :P After I got some hugs from Robyn and a "Please keep us update after surgery" (of course I will!), I walked over and talked to Dr. Davidson, yay! He walked over to me and said "Hi" and then I said "You are banding me next Tuesday" and he said "Banding?" and laughed with "banding" in quotes in the air. He said he never heard that used before, I laughed. He asked if I was excited and I said "Yes, very excited" and he basically said I'll do great and depending on how I feel that evening, I may be able to go home, which was news to me. But man, I do love him, he is soooooo handsome and charming.

On another note, still surgery related, I called my surgeon's office yesterday to make sure they received my EKG/blood test results for surgery. Found out that they did, BUT my potassium levels were high. Ugh! They said I had to have it re-taken again. Blah. BUT, I had blood taken 2 days after the blood results they have. So, I called that Dr. (my hematologist, I have low iron/high platelets, so I go every 6 months to monitor those levels), anyways, they said my potassium was perfectly normal and would fax that over to the surgeon. Whew! Now I just have to have my pregnancy test done Thursday at 4p and then we're set. And that should def. be negative, if not, we have a bigger issue, hehe.

Lost my train of thought and other things I wanted to say, that happens a lot lately. Ciao til later...

Monday, November 14, 2011

Meet Me On Monday!


Blogging is a funny thing...we tell our most intimate thoughts for all to read and yet most of the time I find myself sitting and wondering, "who is this person!?" I know them...but yet I don't know them! I want to know who the person is behind all those words so I thought of a great way for all of us to "meet" each other! 


Every Sunday Never Growing Old will post five get to know you questions that you can copy and paste into your own Monday post and we can all learn a little more about each and every one of us!!

Questions:

1. Does your family/friends know about your blog?
2. What is your favorite card game?
3. What do you wear to bed? 
4. What is your favorite kind of French Fry?
5. What is your usual bed time?



My Answers:

1.      Does your family/friends know about your blog?
Yup, for the most part they do, no idea if any read it though.

2.     What is your favorite card game?
UNO! Which I'm addicted to right now on my iPhone. :)

3.     What do you wear to bed?
Undies, sometimes undies/shirt, sometimes nothing

4.     What is your favorite kind of French Fry?Um, I think the ones from Red Robin, yum!

5.     What is your usual bed time?10p-12am, it varies. 11p is the average.


Saturday, November 12, 2011

Bitching.

I just love going off my birth control and having a much longer than normal period. Loads of fun for me.

But anyway, it's gettin' down to the wire and I do believe I'm nervous now. Not nervous about the surgery itself, but nervous about failing myself in the process. But I'm okay otherwise.

Helped my parents move their pellets into their basement today and got a nice arm workout in the process. Didn't think we would be done in time for 11 o'clock Zumba, but I made it! And it kicked my ass. But I remembered why I prefer the 9am class better, not as crowded.

Anyways, ciao!

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

A couple questions...

Okay, been thinking about a few things and I need some advice.

First, do any of you bandsters carry FMLA through work for their band? I'm debating this.

Also, I need help with inner thighs, I'm talking about major chub rub, I need help! I've lost 16 lbs. this year, not sure where from on my body, but definitely not my inner thighs or thighs in general. Any advice or exercise ideas are greatly appreciated.

Thanks in advance.

Monday, November 07, 2011

Justice.



RIP MJJ! Gone too soon.

"You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

Sunday, November 06, 2011

haha.

Thought I would put this out there, just goes to show what's on my mind...

I downloaded a song called "Weightless", but instead, titled the song "Weightloss".

:)

Friday, November 04, 2011

BYOC

Let’s get to what we came here for! 


BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy.


 A couple questions we answer to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break. Copy and paste to your own blog if you wish! Enjoy!  Thank you, Draz!!!

Let’s do another themed BYOC…..this one will be called 
“What’s In/On Your….?”
1. What’s on your desk between your monitor and keyboard? (if it’s a laptop – what’s on your desk in general)
Well, I am on a laptop and using a tray, so the only other thing is a tissue and a bottle of water. :)


2. What’s on your mind right at this moment?


Oh boy, where to start...lap band of course, surgery in 18 days, can't believe I finally made it this far. Ahhh! Can't wait to start feeling like "me". Other than that, just working, getting in doctor's appointments. 


3. What’s in or on your nightstand on your side of the bed?

In the nightstand = random stuff, books, book light, and other stuff. On the nightstand is a touch lamp, a book and usually a bottle of water and my glasses at night. 


4. What’s on YOUR Christmas wish list (let’s assume you’d get what was on it)?

Nail polish, makeup, books, Vera Bradley purse(s), zumba clothes, various charms for my bracelet, nose ring, a watch and hello kitty stuff.


5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in real life and in blog land.

Real life: Just work, appointments, working out, lap band. Repeat.

Blog Life: Good. Posting a lot, it help me stay sane and keeps things from bottling up.

Pre-op

I had some minor pre-op testing today at my primary care doctor's office. I had to have an EKG and some blood work. Then on the 17th I had to schedule a pregnancy test for pre-op as well.

Read over my entire packet of info today, nothing I didn't already know, except the diet info; which is extremely helpful and even has recipes and shopping lists for the first month of diet phases. It's a bit overwhelming and much more real now.

18 days and counting...

I'm actually really happy that I was able to get it right before Thanksgiving, because I don't have to use as mych of my time at work. So I will now be okay for my post-op appointments.

Okay, more later.

Ciao!

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

Ugh.

I don't think my stomach likes iced mocha frappe's anymore. :( could be stress too. Plus, I guess I could really do without the 550 cals I just drank away. :(

BUT on a side note, I love the fact that I look forward to my zumba every day after work, yay! But I def need to include more weights, but it's always so busy! Guess I should use the ones at home then.

Also, Cat/Robyn, I would love to do zumba with you guys on a Sat sometime, let me know!

Ciao!